I can't

I can't
I can't laugh.
I can't cry.
I can't see inside of me,
don't know the reason why
I ain't straight
and I ain't high
I'm the ugly in between.
Can't live and I can't die.

I wanna scream
and I can't win.
My life's a living soundtrack
for a human horror film.
I can't feel
and I can't love.
My mama never showed me how,
I never was enough
I can't laugh
and I can't smile.
I'll sacrifice my aged elders
to show me how to die.
I can't love
and I can't feel.
And my mother never loved me.
Deep down she hated me.
I can't f***.
No, and I can't feel!
I'm one bizzare motherfuc***,
what the fuck's inside of me?
I'll kill the beast
so to free my soul
and smash the mirrors
that won't let me go.
Oh! If there's a smile
that ya see,
it's only the clockwork
orange that's in me.
I curse the darkness,
impassioned plea
and tear the heart out
and watch me bleed.

I'll sacrifice my blood for free
to satisfy the
vengence that's in me
and bury the mirror
that's inside me.