If You Ever

If You Ever
I close my eyes
Lay down and sleep away
There's no return
It's my mistake
There's no use in crying
It's time to learn

If you ever need someone
Sorry 'bout the things I've done
My life goes in reverse
If you ever change your mind
When the rainy days are gone
And the balance returns
All alone
This time I walk away
It feels so cold but I know It's something I deserve
I deserve to be mislead
Breaking up the family
I know it's my fault
It feels so cold but I know It's something I deserve
I deserve to be dead
Sorry 'bout the things I've done
Changes will come in the fall
Waiting for the storm
My face against the wall
Hoping that you could forgive me
You could forgive me
Forgive me