The Way I'm Wired

The Way I'm Wired
Cancelled again
I’m a bad friend
Got outta bed just to get back in again oh
Now I’m lying on the cold floor in the bathroom
And the painkillers don’t work like they used to
And the doctors say I’m fine
Must be all in my head right?

I’m alive but I’m not living
And it’s time I just admit it
I’m sorry that I’m sick and I’m oh so tired
Forgive me it’s just the way I’m wired
On the outside I look fine but inside my body my mind is
Someone I don’t recognise
I swear I’m losing this fight
Sorry that I’m sick all the time and I’m oh so tired
It’s just the way I’m wired
It’s just the way I’m wired
It’s just the way I’m wired
It’s my body
She’s against me
She’s a warrior
But she’s hurting
I’m proud of her
I wanna be there for her
But I can’t seem to put her first
Scared that I’m gonna lose everyone
Cos these days I’m just no fun
Used to dance all night long
Now I work and just stay home
I’m alive but I’m not living
And it kills me to admit it

I’m sorry that I’m sick and I’m oh so tired
Forgive me it’s just the way I’m wired
On the outside I look fine but inside my body my mind is
Someone I don’t recognise
I swear I’m losing this fight
Sorry that I’m sick all the time and I’m oh so tired
It’s just the way I’m wired
It’s just the way I’m wired
I don’t need no sympathy
Just don’t want you to think bad of me
If I’m flaking cos I’m breaking it’s not that I don’t care
It’s so hard to talk about
And I hate that I’ve let you down
I miss you
I want to be there
I’m sorry that I’m sick and I’m oh so tired
Forgive me it’s just the way I’m wired
On the outside I look fine but inside my body my mind is
Someone I don’t recognise
I swear I’m losing this fight
Sorry that I’m sick all the time and I’m oh so tired
It’s just the way I’m wired
It’s just the way I’m wired
It’s just the way I’m wired