Why?

Why?
Love injection blank reflection
I’ve live my life in misery
False intentions pain addiction
10 years wasted out on me
still waiting Frustrating
for my infliction to receive
Still fading Still crumbling
Deterioration will never cease

Why? Why? Must I go on living
Why? Why? Must I endure the pain I’m in
Free will to do what I want
I don’t remember wanting this
Pain pills I take what I want
who care’s I no longer believe
Still crying Denying
This mutha fucka’s controlling
Still trying Still searching
For meaning, fuc*** impossible to find