Nota de suicidio (en inglés)

Nota de suicidio
[Verse 1: Porta]
I wake up without wanting another day, and it’ll be the last one
Few believe me, today my Eden arrives, I assume it and I don’t even hesitate
And I swear, from my heart, my dead soul warns
It’s not a threat, it’s a lie that ended up becoming true
I left the door open and a half-written note
It was read with difficulty
“Bye mum and dad” it said on it
I went out barefoot, without strength, without will
I imagined myself on the floor, dead, and no one was crying
I stroll down a solitary street, everything is dark and it’s raining
The streetlights observe me and the passing of time hurts me
The edge of my blade grips me, it’s her
I’ll get to the end in the easiest way, life isn’t beautiful (why?)
I just look to be alone now
In a labyrinth without exit I stopped asking God for help
I talk with my conscience alone
She tells me to pull the trigger and I’m scared to say goodbye
I’m sorry, I have failed you one more time (one more time)
I have noticed the shame when looking at myself in the mirror, mum
Forgive me, I beg you, I don’t know if I explain myself
I’m sitting on the handrail of a seventh floor
But I’m already dead inside and I’m tired
I’m fed up with living escaping always from the past
I was a coward, I gave up more than one time, I was about to
I write this incomplete story in my notebook, I don’t even fight now
Blank pages, stained with the red of my blood
I don’t deserve even 1 tear, it’s my suicide note
And I’m late, I signed a document with Satan
To free myself, I just have to jump

[Chorus: Porta, Soma]
I jump, I jump into a void that never ends
My life passes by my eyes and time stops
To not see my face anymore, shoot me, go!
My soul cries out to leave its body now
(x2)
[Verse 2: Soma]
I feel as if I’m already dead
In a world of blind people, one-eyed king
I don’t give a f*** about the A Puerto LP
It’s true, I don’t have anything to give or receive
Hoes I warn you, I live speechless
And I barely write, something is fuc*** up in my mind
I feel like an adopted son
Too impulsive, they tell me
Captive of the negative
If flying is the end
Let wings glide
I gift rhymes, with my shark mouth
In an intimate form, words without pantomime
If you don’t have Z’s disc, steal it
But I don’t want to live more now
It’s too hard
When I die, spit on my tomb without any rush
I have cast the spell
Of eternal stupidity
I feel the stiffness in my muscles
It’s liberating to live without a future
Feeling betrayal makes me die prematurely
It’s poison what I feel, I swear
With rage in my blood I only knew how to ask for forgiveness
When I was immature
Tell my mother that I loved her and that I’m sorry
To my bro, to look for my words in the wind when it blows
To the ones who wished for my pain, I wish for them double
For having torn a noble heart to pieces

[Chorus: Porta, Soma]
I jump, I jump into a void that never ends
My life passes by my eyes and time stops
To not see my face anymore, shoot me, go!
My soul cries out to leave its body now
(x2)
[Verse 3: Porta]
I’m alone in a silence that is irritating and I shout
Hear my last word, read my last text
Pay attention to me, I only ask for that, I need it
Drops of sweat and from my eyes fall onto my suicide note
I’m sorry for not being able to tell you more
Few will cry, but how many will rejoice
I saw my name on a tombstone and it didn’t even faze me
How many loads I’ve carried for such few years
There is nothing that can stop me
I’ve been dead inside so long, inside me there’s nothing now
I’m just another body, dragged by the wind,
So violent, that destiny blows
There’s no witness, there’s no friends, no reason is left
Alone, I walk the way, I know that at the doors of heaven
There is no room for this pilgrim
God, it seems to be a lie, today I’ll know if it’s true
That after death, another life exists
[Outro: Porta]
Today is Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, perhaps it’s Thursday
I don’t know why, but in my eyes it no longer rains
Perhaps your memory will keep me alive
If exile doesn’t want to send me straight to oblivion

[Outro: Soma]
Today is Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, perhaps it’s Thursday
I don’t know why, but in my eyes it no longer rains
Perhaps your memory will keep me alive
If exile doesn’t want to send me straight to oblivion
[Chorus: Porta, Soma]
I jump, I jump into a void that never ends
My life passes by my eyes and time stops
To not see my face anymore, shoot me, go!
My soul cries out to leave its body now
(x4)
La canción 'Nota de suicidio' de Porta narra la profunda angustia y desesperación de un individuo que está al borde del abismo emocional. A lo largo de la letra, el protagonista expresa su abrumadora sensación de soledad, tristeza y falta de esperanza...