For indifference

For indifference
I choke on my bitterness
Because some things are better left unsaid
Hesitant is my instinctive venom
Since I've stepped out of this light

I said I'm sorry
The truth is I never was
Begging to be indifferent
I'll take you down with me
You're going down
I'll take you down
Falling
Scratching, tearing
Ripping, falling, melting
Scratching, tearing, bleeding, feeding
I said I'm sorry
The truth is I never am
Begging for indifference
I'll drag you down with me
You're going down
I'll drag you down
A toxified embrace holds me up
As my suicide increases
And my life skids out of control
Shouting back in my face
As I lose control of my hands and mind
As I reach for my peace
I claw at my eyes
Insensitivity looking away
Just like a raped mother to her child
I hate you just the same
I hate you
And when patience wears thin
Intentions watch hungrily transparent
Anxious to feast on your devotion
Anticipating that quenchless thirst