Barely Alive

Barely Alive
I hold myself still and shape into something I cannot conceive
sit and stay still, grieving for something that was never real

I can’t recognize my own self
all I see is that I’m ashamed
Do I feel fine? Never mind
Barely alive - I don’t mind
I am so alone and craving for something, but I won’t feel anything
Locked away in my own shame
All I see is that I’m to blame
Do I feel fine? Never mind
Barely alive
Sit and smile, lose your mind
Half alive - I don’t mind