Disease

Disease
Innocence, i began, youth my direction.
Ignorance, love in my heart, no detection.
Tried to explore, dying for more.
Life, death, please mother let me begin.

I closed my eyes, everything a lie.
Rebellion to rebel, fallen in deep, why?
Tried to deter, dying not to see.
Hate, hate, please mother leave me be.

I created, i found myself at least i thought.
Lust for for love rotted me, no detection.
Tried and achieved, what was not conceived.
Watch me, please mother look at meee!!

I fell, i fell hard, face down denial.
I've beaten myself into the ground.
I tried to rise, everything changes, not me.
Wrong or right, please mother forgive me.

I looked, i looked at myself, my direction.
All these years gone, but i found love.
Myself, i'm off to explore again with peace of mind.
Every day mother, father i'm more like you.
I understand why you do the things you do.

Disease!! rots under my skin.
Disease!! committed like sin.
Disease!! starving for more.
Disease!! i don't want to cure.