Lose A Number

Lose A Number
I watched tv til the sun rose
fell asleep in the same clothes
woke up alone, picked up the phone
and called the one i said i’d never call again

i need to lose a number
someone take my phone away
i need to lose a number
someone take my phone away
?
i need to lose a number
someone take my phone away
it starts with a little tiny trigger, that sparks an even bigger
memory that rushes over my body, blood begins to simmer
my heart beats a little faster, cuz i’ve been hurt
and now the feelings coming back, and i’m looking around
nobody notices now, don’t let this happen again
how can i be so weak and, hold the phone like i’ve done before
and know everything i’m doing is wrong
i need to lose a number
someone take my phone away
i need to lose a number
someone take my phone away
?
i need to lose a number
someone take my phone away
it gets so bad sometimes
especially after late nights
a little drink, feels like i’m doing alright
then it hits me, grips me quickly
takes me to that dark place i know, but now i gotta know
just a little more, thinking answers will alleviate the paranoia
i hold the phone like i’ve done before
still everything i’m doing is wrong

i need to lose a number
someone take my phone away
i need to lose a number
someone take my phone away
?
i need to lose a number
someone take my phone away
won’t you please pick up the phone
we haven’t spoken in so long
i can’t help myself, i just need to know
how this ended so wrong