Veins! Veins!! Veins!!!

Veins! Veins!! Veins!!!
Though we barely survived, I never felt more alive
I feel ashamed of where I've been
Oh, to be a motherless child
Oh, be still, my heart
Your weaknesses, they vacation in my dreams
And when I'm not sure if you'll haunt me in my sleep
I'll know you're there, coursing through my veins

Try and starve the devil inside
(Predisposition is I should've known better)
We burn out dull just out of spite
(The family crest is our medication)
This bitter pill I've swallowed down
Is greeted by a poisonous smile, a calcified heart, a cancerous gut, the appetite to give up
And your weaknesses, they vacation in my veins
And if I'm not sure if I'll see you in my dreams
I'll stay up all night on the floor
Taking pills to keep me warm
'Til I'm not sure I exist anymore
But that's just fine, it's who I am
I appreciate my pain 'cause I never had a choice
And it was you or nothing
Can hurt me like I hurt myself