Amnesia

Amnesia
And just one moment
Is all I ask for
Just one talk between us
And just one second now
Some perfect clarity
And eighty hours alone
And I swore to god that I wouldn't cry
And I swore to you I can't see
How it's anything more than a lie

And all these years
I won't ever let them go
All my fears
They'll bring me down, down so low
And I'll be missing you
For a lifetime
But eighteen years are better than none
Until the time comes for me
To turn to dust
So I'll get on fine
My mind turned inside out
I've always found it easy
To hide these thoughts of mine
A collapsing state of mind
I'll sink to where thoughts can't find me
And I swore to god that I wouldn't cry
And I swore to you I can't see
How it's anything more than a lie
And all these years
I won't ever let them go
All my fears
They'll bring me down, down so low
And I'll be missing you
For a lifetime
But eighteen years are better than none
Until the time comes for me
To turn, to turn
And we all hurt
And time heals nothing at all
Decisions made and they cut me off
From all I've ever known
And I can't think
No, I can't breathe
I can't be what I want to with this weight on me

I wish I had
Selective amnesia
To keep you away from me
But I'll be missing you
For a lifetime
But eighteen years are better than none
Until the time comes for me
To turn to dust