In Love with Myself

In Love with Myself
in love with myself that night
trying to forget/forgive
blinded by the bright white light
time’s up, place a bet
I said what I said
it made sense in my head
stay quiet instead
I’m waiting for the wheels to turn
I’m waiting for myself to learn
still waiting for the house to burn
I’m waiting still

it feels alright
but I’m not trying to hurt myself
I’m going backwards
I’m going back to the place I left behind
when I was a boy
I’m going forwards
I’m going for all the things you said I had
when I was a boy
can you hear me darling?
can you hear my call?
can you hear me scream and shout out?