Self-Destruct & Die

Self-Destruct & Die
I'm only patient enough to please the masses for so long
My brittle arms cannot hold up all the walls in this falling tomb
I'm only caring enough (drowning in expectation)
To love oppressors for so long
Until I begin to crack (I cannot disappoint them)
And the monster will soon come back

I've got to cut the tube that feeds
The undying need for this peace
I'll self-destruct and die
If you don't allow me breathing room
Save me from my phobia of failing you again
I'll self-destruct and die
From the strain of pleasing the masses
I'm the dying pacifist
I don't need you to stop
I only need you to understand
I dig this dagger myself (And twist and turn until I'm numb)
And I'll continue until you end it
I'm addicted to being something they will look up to
And I'm begging for someone, something to bring me back to you