In My Absence

In My Absence
No, Poison me to say farewell
And lingers through the sleepless nights
A trail of days that end in tears
But I can never be there
The rush of hours,
That never seem to end
My life to tell? You can not comprehend

I am the absentee
I know you're out there searching tonight,
I'm right here
Another day and I cannot see through your eyes,
I'm right here
How could I have known
Whats receding in your thoughts
Wish that I could listen to what always beats inside
For reaching diffidence,
Reaching out
But I can never be there,
How can you think,
That I will understand
When your words just go around
what your heart truly wants
I am the absentee
I know you're out there searching tonight,
I'm right here
Another day and I cannot see through your eyes,
I'm right here
I want to tell you,
You're the exploding light,
How everything is visible,
Moments before the dark
I am never, never there
I know you're out there searching tonight,
Another day and I'm not there
Thrust with nails comfort, anxiety and pain
Through spells or anger, confusion and defeat
I wish you'd see me here in front of you,
But I am not here

I know your out there searching tonight, I'm right here
Another day and I cannot see though your eyes
I know your out there,
But I'm right here
Another day and I cannot see though your eyes,
Lead me right