Mess

Mess
I'm a mess, I've been a mess for months
I know it's real (I know it's real)
I've been doin' anything I can to numb how it feels
(Numb how it feels)
And I know that puttin' all this liquor in my body
Won't exonerate me from the guilt that haunts me
No, there's nothin' in the world that's gonna stop me
Still I wait for you
And I know

It's late and I wanna go home
But I'm scared of how quiet it'll be without you
I hate takin' off my own clothes
Gettin' in my own bed
Spinnin' thoughts about you
It's late and I'm waitin' behind
For the drugs to kick in
And erase my body
I hate how it's all in my head
Smokin' your cigarettes
Thinkin' you could still want me
I'm a mess, I've been a mess for months
I know it's true (I know it's true)
I look for validation from anybody that's not you, yeah
And I know that puttin' all this liquor in my body
Won't exonerate me from the guilt that haunts me
No, there's nothin' in the world that's gonna stop me
Still I wait for you
And I know
It's late and I wanna go home
But I'm scared of how quiet it'll be without you
I hate takin' off my own clothes
Gettin' in my own bed
Spinnin' thoughts about you
It's late and I'm waitin' behind
For the drugs to kick in
And erase my body
I hate how it's all in my head
Smokin' your cigarettes
Thinkin' you could still want me

It's late and I'm waitin' behind
For the drugs to kick in
And erase my body
I hate how it's all in my head
And I know I'm a mess
Thinkin' you could still want me