13th disciple

13th disciple
Deep inside my heart, there's a little voice that guides me
The vengeance burns inside me, and it's longing to break free
I need to show now how I feel, the nightmare made me much too real

I hate you, didn't used to, but you've turned me inside out, I'm left to drown
On my flesh you're my cross burn
Now I'm crucified under someone else's cross
You were the only messiah for me, and I was your thirteenth disciple
I loved you, embraced you, but you let me down
I've envied your strength, this Judas will wear your crown
Time to count the scars, and the little that you taught me
No longer you control me, now the time has come to practice what I preach
I need you now, less than ever before
Forevermore, I've grown so strong
I tell you, you can call me Judas if you will
I will be alright, just let me catch my breath
You were the only messiah for me, and I was your thirteenth disciple
I loved you, embraced you, but you let me down
I've envied your strength, this Judas will wear your crown
I give my life for one more melody, I'm in your dreams for all to see

And in the end meek shall inherit the earth
You'll have your vanity, losing your sanity
They defied thee, crown me their kings and defy me
Thirteenth disciple became in the heart,
the modern day deities now left in the dark
And when I'm around, you don't talk so loud
And when I'm around, you don't walk so proud anymore
Now you see the tables turn
You're the undone king, and I'm phoenix rising
You were the only messiah for me, and I was your thirteenth disciple
I loved you, embraced you, but you let me down
I've envied your strength, this Judas will wear your crown