Trying

Trying
Oh I can't get out
invisible handcuffs locked on me
been praying for my period all week
and relief that I just can't see
I question everything
my focus, my figure, my sexuality
and how much it matters or why it would mean anything
I can't keep it together
I've been better
I've been thinking about it every night

I'm trying, I am
I'm trying, I am
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
trying all the time, I am
trying to hide from my mind, I am
trying trying
why am I
I can't get out
there's no flawless education just a stupid degree
the feeling of growing so far from myself
I can't reach, I can't reach, I can't reach
so I brush it off, cause I want it bad
and there's no dusting up
when you want like that, here's a ship
there's a wreck, better keep yourself in check cause
all these loaded questions gonna eat you alive
I'm trying, I am
I'm trying, I am
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
trying all the time, I am
trying to hide from my mind, I am
trying, trying
Why am I?
If it counts for anything
I didn't want to
I'm just looking for clarity
to help me get through
If you're set in your ways
what can I do, Ease up
so that I can break it down for you can't
feed a beast you
leave unleashed it'll
come right back to you
I'm trying

(SOLO)
Trying to hide from my mind, I am
trying all the time, I am
trying to hide from my mind, I am
trying, trying
Why am I?
Why am I?
Why why?
Why am I?