If Only

If Only
Weary eyes awaiting sleep
Been so long since I could feel
The cold pavement wrapped around my bones
Voices clouding up my mind
A taste is all that I need
Carve your melody in my spine and sing

Cut my arms maybe then I will stop
Cut my arms maybe I'll fuc*** stop
Cut my arms maybe then I will stop
To numb this pain
Cut my arms maybe then I will stop
Cut my arms maybe I'll fuc*** stop
Cut my arms maybe then I will stop
To fade away
Every day's the same happiness in vain
What else can I win if I have everything
Tell me who dealt my cards every hand's the same
What else can I lose if I lost everything
Sink me under cardboard floors
You sedate and leave me whole
Run your gold lips on my tongue
Become a part of me
(Cut my arms maybe then I will stop)
(Cut my arms maybe I'll fuc*** stop)
(Cut my arms maybe then I will stop)
(Cut my arms maybe I'll fuc*** stop)
Cut my arms maybe then I will stop
Cut my arms maybe I'll fuc*** stop
Cut my arms maybe then I will stop
To numb this pain
Cut my arms maybe then I will stop
Cut my arms maybe I'll fuc*** stop
Cut my arms maybe then I will stop
To fade away

If only I've tried
To search for a different feeling
If only I've tried
To see myself for what's beneath
If only I've tried
To search for a different feeling
If only I've tried
To see myself for what's beneath
Every day's the same, happiness in vain
What else can I win if I have everything?
Tell me who dealt my cards, every hand's the same
What else can I lose if I lost everything?
If only I've tried
To search for a different feeling
If only I've tried
To see myself for what's beneath
If only I've tried
To search for a different feeling
If only I've tried
To see myself for what's beneath