Not Today

Not Today
Someday I won’t be afraid of my head
Someday I will not be chained to my bed
Someday I’ll forget the day he left
But surely not today
One day I won’t need a PhD
To sit me down and tell me what it all means
Maybe one day it’ll be a breeze, ah
But surely not today, but surely not today

Oh, you don’t know what sadness means
‘Til you’re too sad to fall asleep
One day I’ll be snoozing peacefully
But surely not today, surely not today
One day I’ll swear the pain will be a blip
I’ll have the hardest time recalling it
I’ll be the king of misery management
But surely not today
One day that song won’t make me cry anymore (Oh no no)
One day I’ll get up off the bathroom floor (Hey, yeah)
Oh, piece by piece I’ll be restored
But surely not today, surely not
Eh, not today
Oh, you don’t know what happy means
If it’s only in your dreams
I’ll be acquainted with my jollities
But surely not today, yeah, surely not today
Surely not-, surely, surely not-
Surely not-, surely not today
One day the thought of him won’t hurt the same
Won’t need distractions to get through the day
I guess I hope I’m gonna be okay
‘Cause I’m not today
'Sometime in the future, I will conquer my fears and emerge from the shadows that cloud my mind. Someday, I will break free from the chains that bind me to my bed, and the memory of his departure will fade into the distance...