beautiful silence

beautiful silence
I trapped away myself
In deathly darkness
Now I'm left with no one else
Except my sadness
I asked and I received total silence
I crept up to his throat
My hands were writhing
I kissed him as he woke
His lips were violent
He screamed a single note
Then total silence

I tried to fight the hate
He wouldn't stop
But he made a ghost of me
I cried awake at night
And fantasized of beautiful silence
You bruised me, broke me
Trapped me, sold me, burn me slowly
Told me no one was open to love
I saw a dancing fool down by the crossroads
I tore my soul in two
He laughed as he spoke
Oh have no fear my child
For you will rise in beautiful silence
Revenge and afterlife
A lullaby of beautiful silence
Of beautiful silence