Breathing

Breathing
I am isolating, I get my communication From an overdue hospital bill
I can’t afford to pay so I hide it
Under a stack of things I’d rather not Yet deal with
I bury into another show Stream into my head and eyes Watch as I die
Touch and go
My finger’s on my pulse
My hands are stretched
Underneath my nose
Watch me fold
My finger’s on the response message Watching the cursor float
I am isolating in every corner of my house It’s not pretty and it feels like I’m locked In myself
Did you expect me to get on my knees

And beg for you? Let’s cut a deal
Let me know
If I’m alive or if I’ve choked
I can’t see your face
So I just go and guess if I’m breathing Touch and go
My finger’s on my pulse
My hands are stretched
Underneath my nose
To see if I’m breathing
I take a step and collapse
I’ll never understand it
I’ll never see you again
Is this the way you planned it?
I am nothing special Just an emotional vessel So covers up
Hide myself