Grapefruit

Grapefruit
Hey, Holy Ghost, why'd you leave me? Where'd you go?
I know we ain't spoke in so long, but I gotta know if I'm alone
If I start drinking, I'm gonna be the town drunk
You always said I should lighten up, I'm gonna lighten up
I'm gonna lighten up

So long. Yeah, I'm sorry that I wasn't who you want
If I can't make you happy, I'm no good for anyone
So long. Yeah, I'm sorry that I wasn't who you want
If I can't make you love me...
I shut you out after the funeral, mired in doubt
You thought a family would help
I was struggling. You could tell
When we got the news that you were pregnant
We painted a room pink and orange like a grapefruit
I know how bad you wanted this too
I know it killed you
In all my dreams, I'm in the house that I grew up in
I'm trying to be half the man I know my dad is, or was
I see me as a father looking over a daughter who grew up to be just like you
And now that's just a thread I can't hold onto
Just an open wound
So long. Yeah, I'm sorry that I wasn't who you want
If I can't make you happy, I'm no good for anyone
So long. Yeah, I'm sorry that I wasn't who you want
If I can't make you love me...

Hey, Holy Ghost, why'd you leave me? Where'd you go?
Right when I fuc*** need you, I'm all alone. I'm all alone
So, I'll start drinking. Yeah, I'll be the town drunk
I'll be a burden on everyone. On everyone. On everyone