House of cards

House of cards
It's late at night the worlds asleep
And I'm trying not to think
I take some pills cause my mind bleeds
I'm thinking what is wrong with me
Because the only thing I know about honesty
Is every lie I told that you believed

I'm afraid, to be alone
I'm afraid, that one day you'll find out
And you'll be amazed
At the secrets I keep
You'll be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's still free in the house of cards
Now I can't look you in your eyes
Because the guilt is killing me
I try disconnect my heart again
Just so I can breathe
I wanna be myself again
But I just can't cause
I'm afraid, to be alone
I'm afraid, that one day you'll find out
And you'll be amazed
At the secrets I keep
You'll be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's still free in the house of cards
It's such a shame what I've become
After years of breaking down
My whole life has come undone
Cause I'm trying to fake it all
And I know that you love someone
But that someone isn't me
Isn't me, no
And you'll be amazed
At the secrets I keep
You'll be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's still free in the house of cards
You'll be amazed